: the following is personal. Please don't be offended and don't feel that you have to post any reply. This post is now more of a "group session" for me: "Hello, my name is Eddy, ... and I have ... practice aversion."]
I guess that my joke above was born in a bit of darkness in me. I've been frustrated for some time in that my drive and dedication to practice got derailed by Life Interrupted
. From Oct 2010 until November 2012 I felt unstoppable
with my need to practice every evening after work and on weekends and I was regaining my technique and advancing in preparation of repertoire for the first time in more than 20 years. PS was very helpful to me. Then I determined to change my work (and I'm much happier with my current situation) but it was an enourmous 10-month interruption that literally took the wind out of my sails. My patterns now aren't the same and though I've been settled for 6-months, I find it difficult to regain/rebuild that drive and hunger that I had before. Now I feel that I look for occasions to do my duty
to practice. I believe God gave me talent and opportunity, and I received enviable training, and what do I do ... just let it get stale. Shame on me. Before I was dreaming of programs and playing; now I distract myself with some other valuable things and some other less lofty things.
Well time's up. Don't worry; I'm not suicidal or anything.
But I bet I'm not the only one with this "problem."